200 post- Dedicate to my dear sis .

salam eblyone .

it's just only ,

i think 15 hours till the SPM began .

totally i am sucks .

everything i do was wrong .

everything i think was worthless .

i think i want to disappear in this earth liked a wind .

and then invisible my self and lived quiet life on my own world in a wonderland that i created . 

oke , 

lately i haven't sleep .

i just got a weird dream as i close my eyes and the next day ,

 i don't remember what i am dreaming for .

one thing i remember is :

 i dream about my sister .

my younger sister that have been gone long ago .

just totally her .

i remember her laugh face , crying face , her touching face .

yeah , 

i know making my memory remember the day she left this earth ,

makes me totally zero hundred percent . 

LOST . IN . THIS . WORLD .

whats going on in my life ?

i know i just stress about my path of life .

i just ...... 

i don't know . 

guys , i have totally achieve 200 posts in this blog .

so , 

today this post i dedicated to my younger sis .

* Dear sis ,

how have you been ?

now i am lonely in this earth , 

no one to story about , 

no one to hear what i am gonna talk ,

no one gave their opinion if i have a hard time , 

i am hopeless .

Dear sis , 

when a memory gone ,

so does the soul , 

is it true ?

i wonder , 

my memory gone lately ,

now i am lonely .

Dear sis ,

i have Allah only left , 

but ,

i just want you by my side ,

why i must go through this path ? ,

why must you go before me ? ,

the kindness that you shown me , 

 when you live in this world ,

makes me feel i am more hopeless .

Dear sis , 

now i am grown up ,

i hope you always pray for me , 

for the best ,

for the exam i am getting through , 

for the result that i will getting for , 

pray for me , 

Dear my sis ,

in there .....*

p/s - all my doubt about myself , getting me more ....... speechless .