once

salam eblyone .

once , i have my verryyy best friend . 

but now she's gone . 

makes my life miserable . 

always alone and just invisible . 

now , i'm not talking much . 

i'm no longer the 'mus' that you all have known . 

i always sat in a corner and thinking . 

if Allah doesn't love her more , then i will always beside her . 

she left me without a note , 

without a single word , 

just quietly and gone .

then , my mind that time was completely blank , 

that's why now i cannot attach with people with much more relationship .

i will begin thinking that one day they all will all left me alone . 

she make me phobiatic with people . 

i cannot laugh easily . 

smile, but it's was not very enjoyful . 

sad ? yesss i am always the one that hide this painful . 

no painkiller that will make my heart beat beautifully again . 

it's will remain uncontrollable .

this is my verry best friend .

Allah loves her more than i do . 

she was really brave to face the truth . 

she smile eventhough she has a pain inside her body . 

i will always remember her day by day . 

i will always love and miss you forever , adik . 

 till we meet again in Padang Mashyar :')

InsyaAllah .